today is Mothers Day.
Mother’s day comes every second sunday of May in each year.
Sebenernya si ngga tau menau sampe tadi di Gereja Romonya bilang.

Yang mantep, tadi sebelum sesi pengutusan, Romo nya manggil semua mother and mother-soon-to-be ke depan, diberkatin trus dikasi mawar satu tangkai setiap orang. Trus Choire-nya nyanyi lagu errr ga tau lagu apa tapi bagus. Berhubung g duduk aga depan jadi ngeliat ada beberapa yang nyeka mata, mungkin nangis terharu. You can call me sentimentil, but THAT’S WHAT I CALL COOL!

I didnt recall any of this ever happened in Jakarta. Well today i just wanna spread love to all mothers in the world, including my very own.
Love you, Ma

Happy mother’s day.
For every mother and mother-soon-to-be *lirik2 blog sebelah*

ps: semalem Reuni sama Nia n Dana. wahhhh 11 taon ga ketemu. nanti de cerita detilnya tunggu poto2nya dah diupload ma Dana hihi.

wah lama banget ga ngepost.
huf huff..
abis ga tau mo ngepost apa. dun feel like it.
but today hmmmm.. got a couple of thing wanna bring up huehue.

Ada dikit misunderstanding di kantor. gara2 jokes si awalnya. berakhir dengan gue yang ga ada sangkut pautnya malah kena getahnya. Untung cuma kursi g yang ditendang, kalo sampe kena kaki gue si ga kelar sampe hari ni aja urusannya tuh.
Lucunya setelah g jelasin, do’i minta2 maap. sampe nyamperin g meluk2 g, bilang sorry lagi tensi sama kerjaan jadi salah sasaran emosinya. haiyah. i mean its like “what the f*ck?”

Jadi inget dulu jaman SMP punya temen satu. orangnya kecil tapi temperamennya selangit. tiap hari kerjaannya ngajak orang berantem. perna denger quote nya dia : “SORRY SORRY..? GUE PECAHIN PALA LO TRUS GUE BILANG SORRY.. TERIMA GA LO?”
huaehahehehe. ampir keluar kata2 itu td di kantor. untungnya hari ni lagi relax day. Team Lead ga masuk, kerjaan ga ada, suasana hati lagi senang. jadi ya sutra la. apology accepted.
Di perjalanan pulang masi sedikit gondok si, mungkin karena sambil dengerin hard rock hmm. tapi sukurnya sampe rumah ada yg masakin mie huehaueh jadinya rada turun lagi de tensinya. *Xie Xie Ni Yaa..*

Lucu ya kadang kalo ngadepin orang yang temperamennya tinggi. bentar2 marah. bentar2 stres. bentar2 ngomel2. bawaannya jadi ikutan stres.
Sebenernya yang bikin kesel si bukan tingginya temperamennya, tapi ngga stabil nya itu lho. dari yang becanda2 tiba2 snapped. dari yang kondisi normal tiba2 koq gini sih? makanya salah satu yang paling g ga suka kalo temenan sm orang is kalo emosinya ga stabil. cos you dont know when he/she’s gonna snapped what. *halah uda keluar singlishnya*. Unpredictable emotion changings is never good. at least I think so.
But actually mungkin lewat kondisi2 kaya gini ini kita bener2 diuji. kalo kata George Clooney di Perfect Storm : “This is where we separate Boys and Men”. lol.

so… be considerate.., not everyone shares the same ideas with you, or same level in jokes, or even same toleration level.

G sempet cetusin si ke dia right after he said Sorry. g bilang “laen kali kalo mo nendang orang pastiin dulu kalo yg ditendang orang yang salah”. bis tu lgsg dia nyamperin g smbl senyum played guilty. kekeke.

ah.. good life.
ga sabar nunggu sebulan lagi.

Okay here we go..

Pas jalan pulang dari Bintan kemaren, baca ulang “Five People You Meet In Heaven”. like i said, sometimes when you re-read / re-watch a book or a movie, kadang ada hal2 yang bisa ditangkep yang kelewat pas pertama kali baca/nonton. As for me, its about this Concept of Heaven.

Digambarin di itu novel kalo sebagian besar anggepan orang tentang surga itu adl tempat yang indah, padang rumput, penuh bunga, matahari hangat, pohon, gunung2, danau, dan kita bisa terbang ngiterin tempat2 itu. Ketemu malaikat, ketemu orang2 yang kita sayang. are your concept of heaven is that ?
in fact, konsep surga gue persis seperti itu lho dulu huahaha.

Sampe kemudian dijelasin kalo konsep Surga yang sebenernya bukan itu. Tapi lebih ke penjelasan bout your whole life. Explanation about your life journey. Kenapa lu ketemu orang ini, kenapa lu jatuh cinta sama orang itu, kenapa hal ini nimpa lu, kenapa lu ngalamin kejadian itu. dan semua penjelasan detail lainnya. I mean, this is so much better daripada cuma terbang sana sini di tempat asing. Whats the point of having your heaven, when you dont even know its meaning, rite?

Aga sedikit bengong juga g pas ngeh. Tapi ga lama sebelum g sadar kalo this is it. yes. Kenapa ga perna terpikir sebelumnya kalo this is truly can be a real concept of heaven.

Perna ngga si lu bertanya2 sama diri lu sendiri, Kenapa gue ngalamin hal ini ya? Kenapa gue selalu bumped into this person eventhough i try so hard to avoid him/her so much? Kenapa gue rasanya beruntung setiap ngalamin hal kaya gini? Kenapa g rasanya susah banget dapetin apa yang g mau, sedangkan yang g ga mau gampang banget dapetnya ?

If you really think bout it. Wouldnt it be so great kalo ada penjelasan untuk setiap pertanyaan itu? I’m talking about hal2 yang sepanjang hidup kita , kita ga ketemu jawaban pastinya, yang lambat laun kita lupakan dan kita puas atas jawaban2 yang walopun ngga memuaskan kita tapi cukup ngebuat kita berpaling dari pertanyaan2 itu.

This is getting interesting isnt it. G semakin niat ngepost tentang ini setelah g ketemu mantan temen kantor. Tau si do’i mo kemari cari kerja. but really didnt mean to look for her straight away. But that night, sumting happened and i urgently feel the rush to buy sumting in Orchard. tak disangka tak dinyana ketemu do’i pas transit di Dhobby Ghout hahaha. Padahal sebelumnya sempet ngomel2 sendiri karena uda malem,perut laper pas nyampe di MRT eh pas keretanya baru jalan. kudu nunggu 5 menit for the next train. Tapi justru karena nunggu itu lah bisa ketemu do’i. sama2 kaget. so much for me not wanting to see her so quick.

That is just one thing. i got lots and lots of thing that really could occupy my mind if i think about it. Like why is it sometimes i feel so lucky. or sometimes g ngalamin sesuatu yang gak ngenak’in yang lepas seminggu dua minggu g baru sadar kalo seandainya g ga ngalamin hal itu, g bakal lebih sengsara lagi. Then i started to be grateful :p

Mungkin ini yang dimaksud sama mereka2 as “Heaven On Earth”. when you realize that you got explanation of whatever thing you have / happen in your life, so you can live your life better. Di saat lu dapet jawaban yang benar2 memuaskan tentang detail kejadian in your life. and you know how knowing these so-called explanations of life really can make you become a better person, not only for yourself, but also for ppl around you

Then who says all you have to do is wait to die so you can feel heaven? its here allright. you either can wait for your life to end and find your heaven, or you can create your own heaven while you’re still breathing here
and who knows.. we might can create our own City Of Angels.. with ourself as the Angels

ps: dedicated buat Handian n YZ yang hari ini last day di office. the very best luck for you guys

-thanks to Kong Ming Siem for the Photo, i reallllly love this one..

hoaaaaa..
akhirnya outing juga. outing terakhir rasanya taon kemaren with CARE.
kali ni different company different country, different kind of outing juga.
di Bintan dan pake EO named FocusAdventure.

cuma 2 kata yg bisa ngungkapin : MANTEP ABIS!

berangkat dari Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal hari sabtu pagi2.
sempet berpikir si, wah tar kaya dulu bareng company lama pula, uda fisikal banget, tidur di tenda, makan seadanya. ternyata not bad at all.

Nyampe Bintan jam 10. lgsg ke tanah pertandingan. whoaaa.. secara malem sebelumnya uda dikasi bocoran dikit ttg outingnya, lgsg gemeter pas liat itu Piramid gede. Katanya si itu puncak nya hoho.
Maen beberapa game dulu sebelum makan siang. Cool. bener2 group game banget. kelar makan siang. eng ing eng.. Piramid session.

So its like this 7 storey pyramid, dan kita harus naek dgn ngelingkerin piramidnya. cuma digantung 1 tali pengaman, ada yang cuma balok kayu, ada yg panjat tebing horisontal, ada yg cuma tali doank injekannya. huahaha gileeeee keren sangat bo. trus sampe atas Flying Fox ke bawah. COOOOLLLL..!

sorenya nginep di Bintan Lagoon Resort. hmm not bad la. deket pantai soalnya. perfect for my refreshing moments. dinner di tepi pantai. Buffet. not so nice si. maen Futsal malem2. anjrit asik juga ya maen bola malem2. trus balik ke kamar mandi, lanjut maen poker. this is the first time i actually play poker in real dan menang $5 huahahaha. trus lanjut ke Clubbing. cuma nongkrong bentar, joget2 2 lagu trus naik ke atas soalnya uda jam 1 malem dan yg laen uda pada ngantuk.

on the way ke kamar :
Gue : “you guys go ahead, i think i’m gonna hit the beach”
Mrk : “ha? what for? tomorrow we’re having beach games leh”
Gue : “no la, just wanna take a look, some views only in night times you can get”
Mrk : “okay okay, we’ll go with you”

huahahah. akhirnya ke pantai liat2 ombak, baring2an, nyaman sekaliiiii. Its like, you close your eyes while you’re laying down, the only thing you feel is the night wind and the only thing you hear is the waves hitting the shore. aje gileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. kapan ya bisa ke sana berdua pacar hihi.

Besok pagi2 nya, niat bangun ngeliat sun rise. apa daya pas buka mata uda terang benderang walo masi jam 1/2 7. Hajar bleh. Liburan gratis, di pantai, jangan disia2kan dengan bobo di kamar. cuci muka, lanjut ke Pantai. uda ada Kong yang lagi motret2 hehue. alhasil pagi2 jadi model poto pantai. i like it lehhh. i always love beach. dan Kute Bali sih lewat kalo dibanding Bintan. ga tau de kalo Dreamland,blm perna pergi. Poto2nya lainnya liat di FS aja ya, g post yg 1 ini aja de. poto rada2 narsis kalo diliat lebi mendetail karena terlalu posing huahaaha.

Minggu nya maen beach games bentar sebelum siangnya muter2 keliling pantai sendirian sambil di temenin gerimis. Secara baju uda lepek gara2 nyebur di laut, disambung ujan mendadak, hajar blehhh muter2 ke sisi pantai yg satu lagi, ngelewatin jalan setapak. AGHHHHH.. pengen ke situ lagi T_T

Walo badan biru2 pas nyampe Singapore, walo pegel2 masi kudu ke orchard beli pulsa n makan, walo malemnya kurang tidur karena besoknya uda kerja, still .. bener2 refreshing abis.

might wanna check this out : FocusAdventure.com

BTW, on the way pulang dari bintan, baca “Five People You Meet In Heaven” lagi, and it just popped up in my head this idea of “Heaven” thing. next post ya. promise this one will be interesting

Dulu keknya perna ngepost tentang Me Time deh.
lupa tapi kapan. males buka2 archive secara dah tenga malem buta huahaha.

Lately i found my Me Time here.
its when i’m walking home from office.
sengaja selalu nunggu langit gelep. (di sini jam 7 masi terang langitnya. jam 1/2 delapan malem baru gelep.
sambil dengerin lagu ditemenin bulan huahaha.
jarak kantor ke rumah kalo jalan kaki santai cuma 30 menit. kalo jalan kaki ngikutin gaya orang singapore, 20 menit :p
Uda lama ga bikin puisi, tadi pas jalan tiba2 pengen bikin. tapi ilang niatnya pas pulang dapet kabar buruk huh.
mungkin besok..
doain aja ya huahaha.

ps: koq di sini jarang liat langitnya cerah ya. Nungguin kapan bisa ngeliat ocean of stars like i had previously in Taman Palem. secara tmpat buat tidurannya uda ketemu, tinggal langitnya yang belom mendukung nih. huheauuehe.

Nite Nite .. have a wonderful upcoming Tuesday guys

Hi.
I’m back.
Its sunday n lagi kena panas dalem. Jadi males kemana2. Isenk2 tadi search archive blog. Ketemu blognya MokCikNab. hehe yg anak asli modblog pasti tau siapa ni tante. ketemu juga blognya cipi pas pertama date sama piku hihi.
Di blognya MokCikNab bilang kl yang ngebedain komunitas Modblog *waktu itu* dibanding blogger2 laennya is the closeness, intimacy dan gatheringnya. dimana blogger lain terlalu individualis to do.
Ahh..
A bit reminder aja si. a simple question : Why do you blog?

Soalnya belakangan keknya spirit bloggingnya kerasa beda banget sama dulu jaman Modblog. Yea, i know, keknya lagi pada sibuk, ada yg lagi pusing sama private life nya.
AND now i will start from my self to blog again.
This is the community that we once believed will work. Even if other ppl say : “get a life, komunitas apa si yang bisa lu bangun dari gerombolan individualis yang doyan ngetik?”

Well, we proved that we’re more than that, right guys?
those gatherings…
those discussions…
those evening Yahoo Conferences…
those trips to such places outside Jakarta…

Come ON.
be active again.
Walo uda pada jauh2an. Ada yang di Jepang, Korea, US, Singapore, Bali, and many other cities and countries, lets keep active in blogging.

join www.tukangketik.com

Coba tulung yah, orang hiatus koq di tag… swt.
mau ga mau daripada tar tengah malem ada piso nyantol di kepala T_T

THE THINGS I’M PASSIONATE ABOUT:
* Life Philosophy , sebaik-baiknya orang adl orang yg berguna buat orang lain -5cm
* Football , Man United ROCKS!
* Nontooooooon , hummmm di sini mahal tiketnya terpaksa sering2 buka youtube :p
* Listening , to others ..
* Sleeping , zZz…Zzz.. zzZ…

THE THINGS I SAY OFTEN:
* yaaa gimana dunk?
* so… ?
* Kerekene ??
* what the Fff***
* hahaha.. -eh ini termasuk kan?- :p

THE BOOKS I’VE READ RECENTLY:
* 5 people you meet in heaven
* Tuesdays with Morrie
* ASP.NET
* Legenda Naga
* Transit Link + Map (nyari jalan ke Embassy :p)

THE THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
* mo ngerasain nyetir nabrak orang huahahahaha
* mo kawiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin
* mo ketemu every close friends i have everyday
* mo belajar masak spaghetti *eh baru inget kalo uda bisa* :p
* mo setiap hari tidur meluk .. umm … syalalala

THE SONGS I COULD LISTEN TO OVER AND OVER AGAIN ( Recently):
* Angels - Within Temptation , jatuh cintrong sejak liat FinFan Crisis Core
* Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten , cool jadi inget si ono kl denger ini lagu.
* Goo Goo Dolls - Before Its Too Late , yea .. better do sumting before its too late :p
* Inggrid Michaelson - The Way I Am , aaannd you take me the way i ammmmmm hihi
* Sugababes - Denial , “I didn’t wanna fall in love with you .. I didn’t wanna know the things I knew ..”

THE THINGS I’ve LEARNED IN THE LAST AND THIS YEAR:
* berenang
* nyetirrrr + ngebuttt :p
* belajar berani keluar dari comfort zone
* C# dan antek2nya
* percaya sama hal2 yang sebelumnya g ga percayain *apa coba*

hmm..
what was i thinking.. hiatus before leaving an cuap2 before.
“Ngemeng” kalo kata Pitshu hehe.

Sudah lama keknya ga mumbling2. my last mumbling2 before i go for a long hiatus deh ah. this time its about “Ironic”. Ironis kalo di-bahasa-kan.

Have you ever feel ironic ?
Some confuse it with Karma. well tipis si bedanya. kalo Karma is what you sow is what you ripe, apa yang kita tabur itu yang kita tuai. kalo Ironic is well something that happens beyond your expectation eventhough somehow you know its going to happen. *waduh bahasa indonesianya repot*

mungkin kalo dicontohin lebih gampang dimengerti:

I joined my prev company on March 15th 2004. Spent 4 years minus a couple of months. and yet, i started on my second company on March 17th 2008. Exactly 4 years since the 15th is Saturday, eventhough g uda bela2in resign dari bulan januari, supaya cepet dapet kerja, malah ujung2nya tetep tepat 4 taon.

Another Ironic is that when ppl telling you that you might get hurt when doing something, or trying to like and see a person in your way of perspective when all the ppl around you tell you that this person is not a good person, which of course you keep it in positive level, and it turned out that the thing / person end up disappointing and hurting you.

Its also an ironic when there are times that you want badly to work with a colleague, which you know working with that person can somehow make you happy, and all the chances you got just turned out bad. Felt like God didnt want you to walk the path you took side by side with that person.

Why i bring such topic now?
well simply becoz i felt so much of it these days.
-stel lagunya Alanis *Ironic*-

So much things that I felt that i can not share. Not to anyone. dont want to put more burden in one’s shoulder. Especially the ones that i care so much.

My kind of ironics began the moment i set my new year’s resolutions.
My kind of ironics
which i can not share with anyone but me.
Simply because all the people i want to share with is not interested in it or i know sharing it will burden them. ironic when i thought i can share things with ppl i care, i end up being alone

The things i left my beloved safe zone for, i simply grabbed the very same thing outside of it. how ironic isn’t it.

The moment when i reached my salvation. my so-called Freedom. the one that i’ve felt and wanted so bad to feel again, not only gave me back that feelings, but also the loneliness attached to it.

Now i understand why Cipi said the thing he said. I Couldnt understand back then.
It is so ironic that i understand now
Just like when you’re having this so gorgeous and precious Mug and when you think its gonna be your favourite forever, it fell down the cabinet and broke into pieces.

“If only i can tell you, that i rather wait minutes or hours, just to walk next to you, listen to your stories, admiring your giggles, than just walking the empty street alone… But somehow i know you wouldnt like it, so its okay.. i’ll just whistling through my path, listening to the stars in my ears, pretending that you’re there with me ..”

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything’s okay and everything’s going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything’s gone wrong and everything blows up in your face
-Alanis Morisette-

and now my hiatus is official

dah lama euy ga ngeblog. sejak masuk kerja.
huff.. so many words left unspoken. so many things left undone. so many grudges left unavenged. halahh.
well keknya perlu hiatus dulu nih buat sementara. soalnya selain akses inetnya lagi rada2 seret, lagi adaptasi sama jam kantor yg belom bisa ditebak.

so ya … gitu deh hehe.
just wish me luck

Kemaren kata om Natalidut ada flatmatenya yang bikin nasi hainam pake bumbu instant. alhasil besoknya pas ke carrefour nyari , eh ketemu bumbunya, tinggal dituang ke dalem rice cooker. keren2..

masak beef teriyaki . awalnya mo chicken tp ga ketemu ayam, ketemunya sapi akhirnya bikin beef aja. *untung ga ketemu tetangga duluan, kalo ga jadi “tetangga teriyaki”* :p

Pitzzie pulang masak err Chai Som ato apa la itu namanya jadi digabung dan seperti ini de:

ps: ada telor instant jg kemaren. gile jaman sekarang apa2 instant ya, cucok kali buat orang yang ga mau tau detail bumbu kaya gue huahauhaha.